Sunday, October 26, 2014

-God IS DEAD- 'Jesus Hates (you); and so do I' Final Draft-before I start really writing this book





10/26-2014

To mom and dad: please don’t say that you don’t read a lot, when mom reads her books and Dad reads his there newspaper, everyday- which is more than what I have written here. No more excuses, and let’s pretend that I do not have to take out my brain to believe anyone’s excuse for not reading and believing in me as a writer: as much as you believe in Danielle Steele or John Grisham or anyone in the newspaper who talks for Obama or Bush or is for the love of romances or mystery or whatever fever. I am as much of a writer and as good as or better at writing than any of –them.   I used to not have a mind, I was like in a mental, emotional, spiritual wheel chair figuratively my whole life up until about 2 months ago.  My time was never much spent practicing writing or reading or what, no my practice was to keep voices out of my head and keep myself from killing myself my whole life, that was my whole life till now. The good Lord freed my mind finally and now the real Mike is coming out, here is his ability. 

The USA has not seen a best-selling author like myself in 50 years or more. The real deal is coming to the world.  This book that I have written below is only about 5 pages long, right now.  This is how I write, this is my true one only profession.  People believing that they have all the love that they could possibly have wanted in amongst the hate.  Book pieces like this one inside are written in my own style of pretext, I do it all my way, whether 5 pages or 100 or what. I take the bare necessity and the most needed sentiment and put it together as quickly as possible to relay a message across.  I call it Slipshod writing, I do it with myself -- exposed and my shoe laces untied, nose running. 

                                                             Title of Book is

                                                               ~God is dead~

                                                       ‘Jesus hates (you) and so do I’

                                                                       Chapter 1

                                        ~At the colonnade by the Asylum of Jericho Bridge~

Which really as far as unholy of unholy things happen about; this was one of the greatest moves for Civil Rights action. As members for themselves were never too angry about anything, as God to them was really only about mercy.  God without wrath, without judgment, without his great reasoning, without his anger, without his hate also, without his jealousy, without his justice, without his truth, just without.  But their anger was for their own choice of right or wrong.  God was emptied of all of his power from what he did upon what a holy his holy life on earth….

(Holy is holy, if you believe in God and believe in such things. Holy could holy hell, if you don’t know what actual holy is.)

A pleasing to their aroma scented in advices that strewn from their God’s pleasing scent; it is what goes to their mankind, a sense--smell, feel in sense of him- of his fullness, it is a force of nature. What—is an attending that goes- it goes like angels washing each other’s wing, attending to one another’s happiness it is to be there then the greatest prosperity to attain from… Exact belief of what emotion can give to anyone; it living for oh what a hell of feeling.     

But things started to really change once in when fascination in its outstretch, it held those into some horrible type of fixations, attributes given to the believing who didn’t believe that their force of nature attributed to anyone’s evil.

As the dark clouded envisioned ones, looked on- as the dark shadows were felt in their presence not so much as seen…. A set in row of in visionaries were all standing in a line of 6, and then behind them was another line of 6, and another line of 6.   And when they left their watching over of these church services of Westgate, and also Mukilteo Presbyterian, and Jericho Bridge and Restoration and like Grace Community Chapel- like most of the churches around the USA, their presence would evaporate into wind, fire and air. 

Sally Sweetie and Donny Don and Jacky Jack and Timmy Tom would sing their kumbaya, inside their church.  

Later-

Some guy thought him marrying himself to his cats would be a great idea in the age of man marrying man and woman marrying woman, it would be novel artistic way to love on God more- it would be to have a legal union with the animal kingdom. As he wanted in no place to believe in the Bible or there that it said anything against his love…

And too many were in agreeing nature to that- because no one thought of anything as so worthy to get angry over about.    

Any surrounding clique in venue of it all, would be in shame for ever trying to compare their congregation to this.

No church could be so great in their mind.

As the people sit about amongst it, for their love of war as their peace, depth defying wickedness their sound off. Their members kill without cause and attend their lives this way and work their religion in among it, amongst its peace…. For whatever attending verse that they wanted to nurse their ears by with their stiff necked obligation to it.     

Them taking part by only letting others feel their presence among it; but a small sum of people knew that they were- in for a bend in acrimony. As it was all of their dark time in looming, steady for letting man’s deeds come to full circle….

Acrimony was a given in a situation holding God as so much in contempt. 

As while church service went on-

As garbage cans would swirl in circles; endless ravaging barks of what seemed to be dogs coming from nowhere would sound. Horrible scratching happening on trees that could not be easily talked down. As the wind there and odd faces appearing around corners of people’s houses; then that would dissipate as quickly as they would appear. Wind garbling up the leaves with orbs bouncing off of wet leaves imbibed from maple trees, and mysterious orbs appearing out of nowhere putting a colder chill in the air. Making the hair on one’s arms attest to shadows also.  In a short period of silence the anguished type dark figures left then in a great noise seeming from afar; the noise would rise.  The throng inside the church would hum steadily and neither gravely, but sinisterly in a loving kind way.  People not knowing what to do- other than what they would always do before; to ignore what they knew true….        

In particularly on happy arrivals, when come as something as welcomed, as they were felt to be looming outside this worship of these days…People living outside the lives that they were living, without them knowing what they live….     

The invariable downfall of any church is when the affected portion of this-- church- it feels superior in actions to others who purport to have the same God.  Precarious situations becomes status quo, for those who work among such….   

The church people would dance like everything was as usual they avoided personal knowledge of what worried other members. As a great sum would always dash outside to catch a glimpse to see where the dark bodies emanate from: they would shake off their disgust with a praise to Jesus from theirs in mankind’s failure in effort to catch a long glimpse, of what they felt as God outside their church and inside it at the same time.

A Sunday is but like this; like it is a Wednesday, like a crowd, it would shuttle through the church that held itself in captivation among a community center; to holding a church group. Wednesday holds up group meetings from people’s houses, it would happen, Bible studies that would push for more fellowship are at 10:30 a.m. on Sunday, Church would start; but first there be meeting up at the Blue-Chip café at 9: 30 a.m. - before church comes to start…. 

People wanted something to answer them in their church. For- sacrificing their children and themselves is not all enough, their need in want it never comes as fed; as one person is treated like the other, one family like the other again…. The in treatment would come as the dark creatures would stir outside the church quarters giving them messages: as its legion passed by to say, “Mike was a guy; we used to know, he was guy we used to know all so well, la, la, la.”  

“Niener, niener, Mike and go castrate your own wiener.” 

Natures would answer the pursuit in a pointing in a lieu of. 

                                                               Chapter 2

                                                      Due North Westgate Chapel                                          

This all comes from a Christian I coming like an Atheist, pagan, and whatever evil Christians can dispel me from here.   

Here is me as subservient to their cause as I wanted them to be proven right amongst ---even for their wanton of beliefs. Who they of the contagion that says that Mike is wrong and they are right, and Mike is the one who is the cause of the problem.  Again nothing solved, again Mike moves on to another church, with no church ever so here much as questioned. Here maybe I am wrong or too angry or maybe I am an angry person and should relinquish myself to that fact. And love and mercy should bear up my infidelity to the truth of all too that fact.  As again I am as a Christian the only one bringing up this stuff again; putting my belief into writing; up for questioning. Putting my money where my mouth is. Meanwhile the great unquestioned of the great unquestioned; for their only want, is to exposit across what my anger as the problem: and theirs anger is everything everyone gets to think of as love today.      

You know people don’t often take on for themselves what it is what they hate about themselves for what they may love of themselves. Wanting to seem as like we are not supposed to hate anything about ourselves in any of this; so on pretend it goes. There is no contentious bone I have to pick with anyone who is Atheist or Agnostic or pagan believing or of non-belief, as they are living up to the exact requirements of what is required of themselves in life now: at least for my vision at this moment (my vision may change tomorrow) they live towards onto what they obey. They have themselves; who live there as to themselves and put it out all what they have as best of themselves out again: limited to the flesh to the body consort that embellishes the chances and whatever it all brings to their lives. 

Here is me though a Christian. And I tend to like the non-Christians more than I like anyone making a claim to God. (Except in the cases, when someone is a Christian like myself is so despised by other claiming believers in God about. If you are like me? Then I believe in you more than any Atheist or Satanist.) 

Being the fact for my present taste being in supposes onto God- what his greatness and his wonderful acclaim--- about, that somehow that with something like him- him coming to touch my human worthlessness, - that there is some way his greatness would show out of me in some way, something different than anything else the earth here creates.   And believe me I have tried my whole life to be a blend into all different said being of churches all about me.  I took on what mantra from them saying that they are different, and “that there is something different that we do.”  But in turn it always ends up looking like an ass end show of a dead cow’s ass with flies suckling on its orifice again.   

I do not see any difference between the church of supposed Christians and those who are of no belief about today here. I am a person who went and was a congregation member among various of churches and not one church ever- let me have a say for what I believe of God- without my faith being questioned for my questioning theirs and them ever gaining on in their chaste hastening state of self-attain. I don’t see them ever questioning their faith at all.

I apologize to the earth for my failures up before this point, for my actually never showing what I have in the real Christ.

Because if people say that they have something; for what they say is so great. What is the use of having it- if you are not showing it- off? Me showing others by all phases of your being from your weakness and strength in here activity that you are 100 percent human, angry, sad, happy, miserable, vengeful, condemning, mystical believing in sensory; and that God is not just one thing either, he is of many ways of personality- but for one way of truth about… 

It would be boring or too exciting: if God were/was something just merciful all the time- with all the crap going on down on earth. There has to be a balance to everything that we do and known to have done, and it cannot be all love and roses. Christians have to stop being a bunch of lap dog slobberers over themselves for their lack of any controversy allowed in their lives. Controversy for the sake of it- is sin, but controversy for the sake of God’s here kingdom is a divine command.  Too many Christians don’t want to take on all theirs nor others horribleness ever really.

Let this book break down the divide between unbelievers and believers alike and between believers and believers alike.  

It is O.K. to be angry. 

God is not so weak that he will turn you away for some honest anger.    This book may be simple to some and may be difficult to others to read or understand. I try to keep it simple and put it among difficulty for how I am writing it. 

Artistry is what I am shooting for also.          

I guess that it is one personal narrative against another’s; or is there an obvious truth that separates human kind from its wickedness- so that something like a God can be seen through it? All I know is that; let me be the first to say- I agree a lot with the Atheists and Satanists and such, as they got good reason to be the way they are for their wants. They have every right to point a finger at the Christians for Christian’s failure to ever actually show God to them. As I 100 percent agree with their position there.  As Christians for 99 percent of them don’t show me God either. As I have the faith to write that in all truth, my faith is not so weak- where I cannot admit to my total here weakness. Let me be the Christian that goes behind- while God walks before- for him showing actual recompense here.  

Trees clapping before God. 

                                                                                                                                                                             

                                                                               Chapter 3

                                                           Staring at Mukilteo Presbyterian Church

                                                                       And Restoration Church                                                                                                                                            

Beginning-

Like a precipitating mist that held long enough, long enough for someone to see them; - but in the dark there on shadows which were darker than the dark that-that they were in,  “it” would go in emissary off, without filtering anyone’s cause of redemption; because their participation was unknown for what their part is in amongst this--- church….    

Some real Ghost Adventurer, Ghost Hunters, Ghost Asylum, Alaska Monster’s TV like shit but lived in real time at church.    

Note: Folks I am an artist. And it is time that I start acting more like one. I am not here to have your beliefs or even my own really to show. But show an impression of something that comes upon everyone’s life without maybe you knowing.

Going against my own beliefs; it goes on against the most valuable thing that Christians like myself attest to about.  Is my life valid for what it is? Is my faith something that constitutes something that strides for any man’s real on betterment? Or is my life the damnable breath in vehement that gives no conclusion in answer; is my life really hell?

Have written about 3 rough drafts for books that really have not been books that I have here wanted to bring to completion yet. Because there is this want to bring on something totally unexpected out of me- first for my first novel. Here this is the book that the Lord almighty has finally given me to start and bring to its full completion; for it going to be my first book that I bring to completion online. The first book of many that the Rooster is going to bring.                                       

It will be called, GOD IS DEAD, ‘Jesus Hates (You) and so do I’- and this is the first here of it. And I am working on it right now at this time. As I have a job. But still only give myself 2 hours on the computer to write and still be the Rooster who does it straight from his head to page, doing my bubble concept ideas, rough draft, and formulating the growth of- it in one turn of pushing out the impregnable of gest that circumvents harsh confinement within a trust….                                                 

Thoughts of having a church band play a musical inclination to that—steal of a note from heaven above for giving over to total growth, for what streamlining anyone’s worth in a church in its wants these days- for its minds want to grasp upon; because, who is going to believe there is a God these days or even believe in one at all that or there is only one God- by them just having a basic worship service strewn along with only a basic sown on knowhow of gods. With all the other fun noticeable subtleties to know about; to know only of his mercy it is only what they know….

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